Last week I had a realization and had made a statement that I was glad I had taken writing classes in school. It’s another thing that I have positive feelings about. Not only did I take writing classes, but I also studied creative writing. I was the editor of the school newspaper so I feel I should be able to write a fabulous piece of literature for your pleasure. But I can’t.
Five years ago I lost my husband, sold our home, and retired. I moved to the family farm where I grew up to care for my mother. I was her companion initially, but over time her confusion and medical condition worsened and I lost her a year ago. Caring for my dear mother was one of the most positive experiences of my life. We laughed and cried together. Why did I do it? Because I could.
My story here is that life is constantly evolving. Nothing is static; nothing is predictable. There are times I feel I could write a book, that my fingers are flying across the keyboard, telling a story. There are times when my fingers are stone cold at the keyboard, mind blank. Things change, life changes.
Perhaps I am feeling nostalgic right now. This week my five siblings and I are dividing up the balance of my parents’ “things.” I feel it creeping up on me, an anxious feeling of finality.
And now, back to my positive attitude. We have so many things to be positive about. I am happy that I have been active in several organizations and have a large circle that I consider friends. I am happy that someday we will step out of this Corona virus and will be able to meet in groups of larger than 10 or even 25! I am happy that I live in the country and awaken to birds chirping or hens laying eggs. I even enjoy my sister’s dog coming to visit me every morning, frequently before I am out of bed.
There are certainly times I feel “down” as I really want to be back to having sessions and enjoy your company. I want to be able to recite my ritual work and to have a real meeting – in person! I know I have several angels around me, keeping me safe and secure. You have your personal angels as well. Let them help you.
You, my friends, are so special. Reach out to touch another life. You can make a difference. You can, you could, you will.
Queen Holly
July, 2020